angela nickys mum,
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12-Apr-2008
2:53 PM
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Hello everyone,
Hope your weekend is going well.
For me it is that time of the month , my son's birthday is on the 21st,of April, He would of been 32years old.
Instead he will always stay at 29.
This september Nicky has been gone for 3 long years.
Some times i pretend to myself he is still going to come home, i know that this is just wishful thinking , but boy what a wish.
I sometimes think i could of filled the sea with all my tear's, but this month is hard.
I just know my life has changed so much, Nothing seems to stop the crying i even started on my way to work the other day.
My head is like a calander remembering through the years my son growing and changing.
Good times, the bad times ,lol bad times they were just nothing, compared to death.
But now their is no more change to come.
Because Nicky is missing. time stands still .
from the date they die.
No more memories and that is scary.
How is it for you!
How do you cope with these anniverasarys and do you still cry.
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Linda Arrigo
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13-Apr-2008
10:37 AM
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I know what you mean Angela.Michaels birthday was December during the holidays so I don't celebrate anything.His 2nd year anniversary is the end of this month and I can't stop crying or being depressed.I feel like I am sliding back.I find myself crying at work,in the car anywhere at anytime.I try to keep busy and I've been calling Jeannie just to talk.She lets me talk about Michael and it helps so much sharing my memories.I think just trying to keep busy and talking to a friend is helpful.I also pray a lot and ask God for some peace.I guess taking it day by day is all we can do.Hugs
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Diane Brozzetti
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14-Apr-2008
10:01 AM
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Hi
I think everyday is so hard, but when it’s their birthday or anniversary you just go thru the motions.
This would be the year Jimmy would graduate from college and all his friends are getting ready to move on with their lives and I just can stand it. I know I should be so happy to be included in their party’s and the phone calls to my daughter for help with their resume and job search, but I feel Jimmy should be the one Dina should be helping and he isn’t here.
I think we all wish we could just turn back the hands of time and bring our children home with us again where they belong and have a normal live again. Now we ask the same questions everyday WHY and how could this be? Never a life I would wish for anyone.
Wishing you all a peaceful day
God Bless
Diane (Jimmy’s Mom Forever)
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jeannie mazur
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14-Apr-2008
10:47 AM
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YES, I AGREE EVERYDAY IS HARD. BUT I REMEMBER THE FIRST YEAR I MUST OF STILL BEEN IN SHOCK AND THEY MEANING COMPASSINATE FREINDS SAID THE SECOND YEAR WAS THE HARDEST I THOUGHT NO WAY.. ILL BE FINE WELL IT HIT ME REAL HARD. AND I BECAME VERY DEPRESSED. AND AFTER THE ANGEL DAY I DONT NO BUT IT WAS STILL VERY HARD, AND ALWAYS WILL BE.. I HAVE NO ANSWERS, KNOW EASY WAY TO GO ON THATS FOR SURE. KNOW I HOLD EACH AND EVERYONE ONE OF YOU IN MY PRAYERS, JEANNIE/MOM TO DUANE SUESS
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Denise Kneale
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15-Apr-2008
8:04 AM
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Today is my baby Daniel's Birthday, he would have been 32yrs and his Angelversary is tomorrow.
I have put a little tribute to him on James' website. http://james-kneale.memory-of.com
I have never thought about the years and what he would be doing etc., and I don't do that with James either....maybe I'm just insane! But as they are no longer in the physical, I know they won't be doing the things, they would have been. If I thought about things that might have been, I would definately drive myself crazy!
I think it must help because I communicate with my lovely lad's and it often feels like they are just in the next room, which they probably are sometimes.
Take much care of yourselves
Love and Blessings Denise xxx
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Dessa
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16-Apr-2008
4:21 AM
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You are so right Joseph just had his 3rd angel day it has been so bad. My neck is giving me problems and I have felt like I was going to pass out I believe I did it to myself. I don't know why but I took myself back to that day. I have been trying to get myself calmed down I am having a hard time getting on the computer sitting here very long puts my neck in a frinzy. so please forgive me if I haven't lit any candles know you and your angels are always on my mind and in my heart. If anyone has any tips on how to meditate please let me know. Hugs to all. Dessa
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Denise Kneale
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16-Apr-2008
6:58 AM
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Dessa, I will email you a breathing technique which will calm you and also a beginners meditation if you've not meditated before.
When you're sitting at the pc, see if you notice that your shoulders are hunched up, as this also causes neck and shoulder pain.
All will be well.
Love and Blessings Denise xxx
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Dessa
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16-Apr-2008
5:05 PM
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Denise, that would be great no I have never meditated before and yes I stiffen up at the computer but I stay stiff all the time. I have never been able to relax in a very long time. Thank you
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