jeannie mazur
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19-Apr-2008
6:38 PM
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i know they r all bad days. but there r days when you just can not pull your self together. you seem to be afraid and full of different emotions.afarid of what i have no clue, cause this journey is a nightmare. just wondering what others do on the worst of the worst days,
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angela
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20-Apr-2008
3:39 AM
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Hi jeannie.
For me today is a hard day, it is the day before nickys birthday and i am off to the cemetary to place flowers etc on his grave.
Before i get to the cemetary i go and buy lots of flowers , i love to see the grave with lots of colour.
we then visit my daughter and we all have a good time,
this is good distraction from greif you should have a good laugh and chat about the good old days.
The cemetary is a 2 hour drive away i can not always get their.
I have done nothing no cleaning just shopping for the bits i want.
My house is like a pig sty.
but this is how i cope .
Tommorow, i do not work on my son's birthday i think over the years and have a good cry.
I have made a vow i am going to try and clean up a bit tommorow to break the day up.
being messy is not what i am used to as i was always spotless.
i become like this with death, some days are just so hard.
i have to keep my energies going to get to work and then my other face goes on.
You see jeannie to other's nearly 3 years, is enough for your greif they could not possibly understand what it is like .
It is good to be busy but not pushed- go for a walk , a drive .
But you just have to distract yourself from the hurt you feel and the bad feelings.
Watch a good movie tv, show.read a book listen to music.
you will know what you like.
I will be thinking of you .
you can always e. mail me my e mail is .........
angelawrate@aol.com.
Hugs to you Angela Nickys mum.xx
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Dessa
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21-Apr-2008
10:20 AM
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Jeannie, Angela is right we need to do something to distract ourselves. That doesn’t mean we are not thinking of them. I started reading books and I am going to plant a flower garden this year for Joseph in the shape of his name. (JOE) that is what his friends called him not me though. Music I am still having a hard time with we listened to music together all the time so its hard. I do watch TV now and I catch myself trying to watch what we watched together even if I didn’t like it. There is never a moment they are not on our minds. What I do when I start to fall to pieces is I ask Joseph what he wants me to do and a lot of times I feel warmth in my heart and I know it’s him. I did have a really hard time his angel day it was 3 years I was doing fine until I wrote to him in his condolences page I fell apart but God sent my husband home from work early that day and he saved me. He got on my nerves but he saved me. My family still walks on egg shells around me so I try to do my best. I am here also you have my email. Hugs and love. Dessa
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JEANNIE25
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21-Apr-2008
1:42 PM
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thank you for your help.its been a very bad week i have had some good days. but this week i dont understand iam not feeling good. and 4 some reason iam sccared i guess of never knowing any happiness again.. thank you all. i just need this to left some...i walk, i read i go to malls. i dont understand but i no one thing iam not taking there ANTI DEPRESSIONS. god bless and praying for us all.mom to duane suess
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angela nickys mum
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21-Apr-2008
3:02 PM
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Hi Jeannie please e. mail me.
angelawrate@aol.com.
time now 11; pm uk time.
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